a star…a shooting star…

I seriously only come here when I feel emo/sad *sigh*

It’s easier to just block things out with music, but my headphones were only half-working. Perfume’s music is a great antidepressant but it only works for so long. Anyhow…stupid memories. But, of course, I’m too weak to get closure. And all I did was smile and nod. “It’s okay.” Pfft. It’s not, wipe the stupid grin off your face.

Life is okay.

Too bad…it was in my dream. :[ It was so great though TT_TT

<3

It was raining while the sun was out. I loved it. The clouds and sun were so pretty while it was raining. It makes me want to buy a clear umbrella. I wouldn’t mind the rain so much if it were sunny like that. I wouldn’t mind the sun so much if it were rainy like that. I’m really weird haha

On another note, took a Psych Statistics quiz today. It wasn’t so bad (not bad at all actually). I feel like I only messed up on one question. But…I guess I’ll see later :]

that I want to leave? Cause, I do.

It seems I only post here when I’m feeling emo. Oh well.

I need another body pillow. :[

I’ve been in and out of sleep since 9 or 10 today and I haven’t eaten. It’s kind of a liberating feeling, really.

Lawler finally put up my History grade, making it official that I got a 4.0 whoo-hoo :] Although, technically I didn’t because I guess my awful math grade factored into my Fall Semester totals I’m so effing sad. I really wanted to be on the President’s List, but at least I’m on the Dean’s List :\ And, there’s always the off chance that they won’t count my transfer records x_x

2008 is so over. I can’t say I’m looking forward to anything. I’m a big worrywart so I’m trying not to obsess over how it’s going to be. Ideally, I’d like to have an apartment and actually be with my friends on New Year’s instead of my family (harsh much, I know?). I’m excited for me and my friends I guess. The older we get, the more our parents lose control of us but the bond will still be there anyways.

I never really group things into years but by academic semesters/levels. (Like, “5th grade” “6th grade” etc.) So actually, the new year isn’t all that big a deal to me. Just another excuse for people to get drunk haha And I can’t say I’m a big fan of alcohol. I had mimosas @ Madeleine’s yesterday and I think champagne is pretty disgusting and don’t see why people like it. I had to down 2 cups of orange juice to get the taste out of my mouth.

Other than that, I thought Madeleine’s party was pretty fun. I really love board games and friends so haha, it’s a blast :] I don’t understand why people would need alcohol when you’re in the company of good friends.

Anyhow, I just saw Regina who handed me a Chemistry workbook for my upcoming placement test that will totally help :] Thanks!

Now I’m off to my first eat-out dinner of the new year.

It was exactly that. Another blog? And a random picture that caught my eye. And then I read one line that really spoke to me and I actually started reading. And I wasn’t absorbed in the ramblings, but I wasn’t disinterested either. And as I kept reading, I realized that we were probably kindred spirits. And I found myself finding myself in the random blurbs, in the random vignettes. It’s me. Those are my feelings, voiced in a way that I can’t. We have the same insecurities, the same desires. It’s the same melodrama, the same apathy for life… We’re not friends. I wish we were.

Life is filled with “If only” …

…Life is filled with “If Only’s”

So…I randomly turned on the TV and RIGHT THEN, the music video for Coldplay’s “Viva La Vida” started playing. I really needed to hear this song. It was such a perfect moment. The video looks spectacular on the television! Seriously…breathtaking is what it is. The colors…the texture…everything…